Goodness, I don’t know where to begin with this one. I do know that looking through all of these photos makes me proud that I’ve been able to get my camera out and document so many fun family memories this year. I made that a goal in January and I’ve been loving what’s come out of it. I already can’t wait to start building my 2020 family yearbook (which sounds odd considering the year we’ve had, but these photos are still so special to us).
And then there’s the tough parts about the last few months. Earlier in June you may have seen me share that I was in the emergency room one morning. I woke up and noticed that my arm randomly decided not to wake up with me. It was swollen, tight feeling, and then turned purple. We figured out that I had a blood clot in my shoulder, which is strange and scary. I’m definitely okay and I have so much sympathy for people who have more serious medical complications, but this is the first time I’ve had anything like this happen to me. From a mental standpoint, it’s been extremely challenging for me to get through. I’ve never experienced anxiety and chronic stress like I have over the past 4 weeks. I’ve beat myself up over the fact that I haven’t been able to just “relax and get over it”. But I suppose the combination of what our world has been like so far this year, along with my scary E.R. visit pushed me over the edge, and my body decided that it couldn’t take any more stress. I’ve been doing my best to relax, enjoy time with family, and just taking it one day at a time. On a positive note, my arm is much, much better!
I’ve also realized how truly amazing it is to have both a spouse and family who are there to support you. I’ve always hated showing any signs of weakness, problems or needing help of any kind. My previous definition of ‘strong’ and ‘successful’ relied heavily on my ability to do everything myself and “never let them see you struggle”. Well, that mantra went out the door this year and I couldn’t be more grateful for the people who’ve allowed me to be a total mess, and helped me through it. Success isn’t about looking perfect. It’s about continuing to get back up every time you get knocked down. And if there’s anything that 2020 has taught me, it’s that those knock-downs WILL happen. We just have to push forward.
These images show time spent with family, 4th of July, Sunday Fundays, and relaxing days by our pool. Despite the current circumstances in the world, I think we’re lucky to have had some extra time to slow down and enjoy ourselves and we’ve definitely taken advantage of that!